jasentay

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I just want to run
Just want to hide away
Close my eyes to your gaze
Just want to leave
Don't want to hear them say
"You're no good at this"

When the world swirls with naysayers
Broken wings and torn pages
The road ahead
Drowning in my tears

Break me open
Tear me down
Into pieces
Broken crumbs
On the ground
You can mould and shape me
In your image
Breathe your life
You know I need it
Scars make us stronger for life

Losing myself
Gaining it back again
Forging strength from weakness
All that I am
All that I'm meant to be
Melting in your hand

Let the world swirl with naysayers
Pickled hearts and sour faces
What is real is what I cannot see

Cut away
All within me
That won't bear fruit
Cut away
All within me

Scars make us stronger for life

作詞：張天成 / 作曲：彭學斌

拼命的上網 悶壞的胸口讓我 想大聲的吶喊
我努力不放 你冷淡 你讓分手就這樣
我連做夢也感覺受傷 一年過了 還是一天 計算著慌張
計程車上的音響 我們最愛的情歌
這一刻卻重重擊破思念的心臟

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 心放空了 寂寞好了

堅強外表下 我脆弱 情人節開始失常
別人慶祝我卻很失落 秋天過了 冬天漫長…
歡愉而感傷 我們天真的勇敢 我們追求的夢想
捨不得也只能收藏旅行的時光

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 心放空了 寂寞好了

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
愛多甜 傷多痛 都釋放

夜深了我怎麼辦 寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜 想她 念她 恨她
一個人你害怕嗎 細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開 多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔 沒有了 心放空了 寂寞好了

I don't intend to do this entry for long. But this month's been crazy. Meeting datelines, project meetings, late nights and now, exam revisions. I've just inherited a iTouch from my beloved sis and guess what, I'm loving tonnes of functions in it. I could read, surf and play games while pooping. I'm onto this game called Tower. Damn fun.

Strangely, I began to develop this dreadful fear, fear of people with motives. I'd be guarded towards everyone I meet. I've been avoiding people, crowds, Orchard, heartland malls. Some places disgust me a lot like jurong point, jurong safra, anything beyond jurong and some areas in the east. I hate them all. Seriously, 2012 should happen now and tear Singapore apart.

Alright, see you in next life (if there is any..)

It is certainly devastating to stay up late to finish projects and assignments which seemed never ending but it is MORE fucking devastating to stay up late to finish projects and assignments in school with group mates who dreads as much as me. Pardon me for the obscenity. This is probably due to the 5 consecutive late nights.

On a side note, what do you think of people who lies and tries to cover up something really bad? I find these people incorrigible and abominable. Fucking liars. They lie to get what they want but ignore feelings and love built towards the relationships. Recently, I have to hear another friend talking about this bastard friend of mine. Oh.. He's not my friend anymore. Just a nothing to me (Yes, you better read this clearly since you read my blog.)

He has the nerve of doing something unacceptable on the level of trust. In fact, I found out he has done something else.

Self-centered bastards should rot in hell.

GO AND DIE!

If you ever appear in front of me, I will not hesitate to slap that stupid face.

Ok. Off to finish my report.

sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20091029/tap-580-two-children-believed-missing-ca-231650b.html

take me away from this world.

Posing for Italian Vogue May Issue 09

Kate Beckinsale's such a pretty cupcake. Don't you agree?

Caught Whiteout with Kate Beckinsale in it. Gosh, it was good thriller. She kicks ass!!

As the time of bounteous fecundity is here (as what John Keats would say), to some, they will enjoy the sensational gentle chill on their skin but for some (i.e. for those living near the Equator) , we enjoy the endless heat of summer 24/7. That is why we have holidays to allow ourselves to immerse in the wonderment of Autumn season. Deciduous trees. Orangey Foliage. Yes.. yes.. The colour of leaves starts to change. So does most fashion boutiques' window displays residing Northern Hemisphere of the globe.

Hermes Women Ready-To-Wear explores aviator, blacks, uniforms, jumpsuits and leathers. It was a full squadron of females walking down the runway, not forgetting their headgears.

Diane von Furstenberg's Fall 2009 collection was interesting. When I saw first DVF on MTV show, The City, it introduces interesting prints on their fabrics. And they continue to do so for the Fall collection.

Being an avid fan for The Hills and The City (which both premiere on September 29), I can't help but to notice the new show debuting it's first season on CW TV network, The Beautiful Life. CW who brought us America's Next Top Model, Gossip Girl, Melrose Place and One Tree Hill is placing the highly anticipated drama on the primetime. The show revolves around a handful of typical American models' lives. The high fashion drama begins September 16.

Watch the trailer.

To finish off, here's an old news, I believe. Emma Watson on Burberry. Quite a looker with the smokey eyes and Burberry bag though.



Disfruta! ;)

Richard Chai, who helped to launch Marc by Marc Jacobs, teamed up with Keds to design a series of low to high top sneakers. Self professed sneaker lover launched his Spring-Summer 2010 men's wear during fashion week and debut the sneakers. After taking a break from my crazy econometrics assignment, I was squealing with excitement when I first saw them trotting down the runway. Awesomeness is simply brewing from these shoes. Look closely to the structure of these babies, no shoe strings but metallic zips! Woot! Plus, I love Chai's Spring/Summer collection. Wearable. Stripes. Layerings.

Richard Chai Spring-Summer 2010 Collection

Diggin' L'Amoureux No. 6. Fresh. Sensual. Charming scent. Gonna get it.

I was at Borders the other day and I sat down with August and whole loads of other men's magazines. Coincidentally, September's issue of Details had the D&G fragrance poster on their back cover which I didn't noticed it. It was then an old uncle was staring so hard at the back cover that he had lost focus on his health magazine.

Madness.

But I have to agree all of them are hot but owning l'amoureux is better than ogling at the new D&G models.

Check this out: www.dandgfragrances.com/en/index.html

Ending off with a behind-the-photoshoot shot...



Cheers. Off to Paige's 21st. ;)

There was this bespectacled guy who wore a grey cotton on polo t-shirt and oversized straight cut denim jeans. As he stood patiently, he held on to a black Prada ladies handbag. The intriguing thing was: he seemed lost standing outside Nine West, a famous ladies shoes boutique.

For the ten minutes before his girlfriend came out the store,

He checked his watch 5 times.

He paced about the entrance 4 times.

He had an amazing ability of remaining as still as a napping flamingo.

Meanwhile, he attempted to doze off once but he could not.

Pardon me but I can't help but to stay in observance of the behaviour. Often, we witness this what I call them 'Prisoners of Shopping'. They are the people, generally men, who are not interested or do not desire this materialist's pursuit.

Earlier this week, Thursday, to be precise,  Keith and I had our Microeconomics class together (Remember the earlier entry where I was having headaches after class? Yeah, that class!) Before all the mama-drama equations happened on the whiteboard, Keith showed me these bunch of clips he found on his facebook. It was featured on Stomp recently where it showed the woman hitting her boyfriend's groin repeatedly and she went on slapping him repeatedly. I was instantly amused by the guy's reaction who was acting just like a punching bag, awaiting to be punched. Why didn't he retaliate or at least, block the "attacks" by his girlfriend?

Just few hours ago, Dominic, Antony and I were on the car waiting for Yixiong to get his vespa...

"He must have screwed with another woman." Dominic said victoriously, as we watched the clip on his new iPhone 3G S.

"How you know..?" Antony timidly questioned, fearing as if Dom would beat him up.

"BECAUSE SHE HIT HIS GROIN MA! AIYOOO!" Dominic replied promptly.

I was laughing away at the back of the car. ROFL. As Antony started driving towards the destination, I thought of the woman and guy in the clip. Have they achieved celebrities' status by someone's malicious intent? We have come to a media age where technologies, gadgets and media platforms are readily available. Something interesting? You whip out your iPhone, activate the video cam function and just upload it to youtube.com within few minutes. Viola, we have a celebrity in the making.

So, be careful you can be a celebrity anytime... ;)

When one door closes, another opens. That stupid door is trying to force its way in. I'm pushing with all of my strength to lock it. To lock it for a while, at least.

Our assignments and projects are coming in. I've got this super-tough assignment where, after my training yesterday, I spent 1 hour figuring out SLR (simple linear regression). *pulls hair*

Management Comms hit us with another kinda-small project - Corporate Rebranding. Exciting project but to realize that my group mates who cannot commit to a weekday meeting, it definitely sucks big time. We need a quickie on this one.

I think figuring CAT module would be like figuring Chuck Bass and Blair Wardolf's relationship. Unpredictable and complicated. *pulls remaining hair*

Finally, I had this huge headache after Microecons lesson. I don't know was it his accent that caused it or the theories he brought was simply too difficult to understand. The headache, somehow, got worse when he explained maximization problem. It floats around my head. Argh.

Anyway, shit happens. Shits aside...

Yesterday, there were many freshies who came for climb training and a couple of hilarious exchange students. The Japanese guy were snapping photos away while one was climbing. ROFL.

Bouldered during training. Still figuring some grips and techniques before conquering the wall. Completed some routes given and realised my weakness. I guess I have to hit the gym more.

Btw, Friday's my off day but tuition @ 3pm later. Anyway, looking forward to climb BBQ tml! Heeh.

Think, Jasen.

I doubt Shasha can do the counting.

Second week of school starts tomorrow. I've finished my refresher on Lagrangian multiplier for Econometrics and my read up on Opportunity Cost for Microecons. I'm kinda geared up for the week! In addition, two of my "beloved" primary 6 kids will be having their preliminaries this week and of course, they will be needing all the extra coaching.

It was raining earlier on. It feels good... to stay home, to lie on your own bed, to wonder about life. To reflect about your past. To dwell on issues. To have your dog coming by your side and lying next to you. To fall asleep with the warmth coming from the little thing.

Sometimes, I do want nothing but Shasha to stay next to me...

Ok. Busy week ahead... Goodnight, people.